by pretty things

January 15, 2018












Surround yourself by the prettiest things. And when I say pretty, I’m not talking about pretty people or pretty artwork or “that shit is pretty expensive” shit. I mean the deep rich feeling of pretty that exists in layers beneath the surface, the face, the frame. The feelings of attachment that’s inexplicable or, perhaps, brings you to too many words gathering at the tip of your tongue.

As a creative, an actress, an artist, I am moved and impacted by my surrounding. I have to be. You have to be. And we have to understand that sensation. The energy. Especially if we want to create something that will impact the world ourselves. We have great responsibilities. To me, artists are humanity’s keeper. We’re the vessel that nurtures it. So don’t blame me for taking my responsibility and my vessel quite personally. And don’t blame me if I want to decorate that vessel a bit and make sure that the 5 ft radius around my vessel is all but inspiration and pleasing, aesthetically and internally. This notion bleeds over to people, too. People I keep around. The only people worth my time are people with bellies full from genuine love and kinetic creative energy. Our vessel—our home—is too important to hoard useless and ugly feelings, people, and things.

Images by Sofia Bibliowicz
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January 15, 2018
Surround yourself by the prettiest things. And when I say pretty, I’m not talking about pretty people or pretty artwork or “that shit is pretty expensive” shit. I mean the deep rich feeling of pretty that exists in layers beneath the surface, the face, the frame. The feelings of attachment that’s inexplicable or, perhaps, brings you to too many words gathering at the tip of your tongue. As a creative, an actress, an artist, I am moved and impac…











Surround yourself by the prettiest things. And when I say pretty, I’m not talking about pretty people or pretty artwork or “that shit is pretty expensive” shit. I mean the deep rich feeling of pretty that exists in layers beneath the surface, the face, the frame. The feelings of attachment that’s inexplicable or, perhaps, brings you to too many words gathering at the tip of your tongue.

As a creative, an actress, an artist, I am moved and impacted by my surrounding. I have to be. You have to be. And we have to understand that sensation. The energy. Especially if we want to create something that will impact the world ourselves. We have great responsibilities. To me, artists are humanity’s keeper. We’re the vessel that nurtures it. So don’t blame me for taking my responsibility and my vessel quite personally. And don’t blame me if I want to decorate that vessel a bit and make sure that the 5 ft radius around my vessel is all but inspiration and pleasing, aesthetically and internally. This notion bleeds over to people, too. People I keep around. The only people worth my time are people with bellies full from genuine love and kinetic creative energy. Our vessel—our home—is too important to hoard useless and ugly feelings, people, and things.

Images by Sofia Bibliowicz
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Sanity

January 11, 2018






My sanity is perpetrated by my future. My sanity is denied by my present. My sanity is lying in my past. 
And there lies my past, sitting in 26 boxes covered in 10 layers of dust. Boxes I have to go through. Delicate issues wrapped in bubblewrap that I have yet to uncover and “deal” with. Hand-me-downs I have to donate. Pages and pages of notebooks and frames I have to set fire to. Sanity is the tape that holds these boxes together, neatly compartmentalized. Waiting for me to come back and settle the score. Sanity lies within the future. Within the life I decide to make, whatever that looks like, I’m still unsure. In the decisions that will affect the next course of actions, and then the next course of decisions, all leading to a future with “sanity” as the outcome or at least having apart of it. Presently, I don’t have the privilege to relish in sanity. There’s moments of sanity, sure. Of peace. Of feeling utterly grateful and blissed. But I see it as a luxury, a taste of what’s to come, and honestly, I don’t even want sanity right now. I don’t want full bliss or peace or contentment. I can’t function on bliss. I can only thrive in tension. Good tension. Bad tension. It is the stimulant I need to create. I’m hungry. I am too hungry to sit still. Too hungry to be patient. I am anxious because I have so much to do. And after that list is checked off, there’s another list waiting for me. So I move, work through my day, moment by moment, trying to make my future sane self proud. So that the sane future me could never say, “I didn’t work hard enough.” I will be enough.

Images by Pedro Angel Morales
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January 11, 2018
My sanity is perpetrated by my future. My sanity is denied by my present. My sanity is lying in my past.  And there lies my past, sitting in 26 boxes covered in 10 layers of dust. Boxes I have to go through. Delicate issues wrapped in bubblewrap that I have yet to uncover and “deal” with. Hand-me-downs I have to donate. Pages and pages of notebooks and frames I have to set fire to. Sanity is the tape that holds these boxes together, neatly comp…





My sanity is perpetrated by my future. My sanity is denied by my present. My sanity is lying in my past. 
And there lies my past, sitting in 26 boxes covered in 10 layers of dust. Boxes I have to go through. Delicate issues wrapped in bubblewrap that I have yet to uncover and “deal” with. Hand-me-downs I have to donate. Pages and pages of notebooks and frames I have to set fire to. Sanity is the tape that holds these boxes together, neatly compartmentalized. Waiting for me to come back and settle the score. Sanity lies within the future. Within the life I decide to make, whatever that looks like, I’m still unsure. In the decisions that will affect the next course of actions, and then the next course of decisions, all leading to a future with “sanity” as the outcome or at least having apart of it. Presently, I don’t have the privilege to relish in sanity. There’s moments of sanity, sure. Of peace. Of feeling utterly grateful and blissed. But I see it as a luxury, a taste of what’s to come, and honestly, I don’t even want sanity right now. I don’t want full bliss or peace or contentment. I can’t function on bliss. I can only thrive in tension. Good tension. Bad tension. It is the stimulant I need to create. I’m hungry. I am too hungry to sit still. Too hungry to be patient. I am anxious because I have so much to do. And after that list is checked off, there’s another list waiting for me. So I move, work through my day, moment by moment, trying to make my future sane self proud. So that the sane future me could never say, “I didn’t work hard enough.” I will be enough.

Images by Pedro Angel Morales
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It feels foreign.

January 4, 2018













I can feel every fiber of my being. But it’s different. It feels foreign. My hands look different. It’s softer. More assertive in every punch into a key. It’s delicate and expressive like the leather on my favorite novel. My face tougher. Taking emotional punches to the chin. It formed calluses to take on the strongest and unexpected right hooks. But more often than not, it relinquishes my mind of any control and goes rogue (also known as resting bitch face). My heart more empty. It carries less weight. Paying a visit to all these homes, doors opening in front of it with the naivety of a 12 year old girl. But how nomadic my heart is, opening another door, closing, and leaving abruptly, it learned not to leave it’s toothbrush and say “I love you” to every host. And my mind heavy. Heavy in aspirations. In conviction. In pumping blood. I imagine the blood being fuchsia, perhaps. Or violet. There’s magic in my mind these days. It’s oozing out of every pore in my body, ready to paint the walls, the streets, the clouds around me.

From today on, my mind will lead my steps ahead. It’ll shine the way even when the pit feels dark and endless. I’ll trust it. It’s blinding with the deepest streaks of pinks and purple. And so if you’ve known me before today, I’m sorry but I am not the same. You’ll see familiarities in my mannerisms, my smile, even my words. But you see, the light illuminating from my chest, from my mind is different. And if you’re looking for me. You’ll be disappointed if you’re expecting the old me.


Images by Kim Geronimo & Lynn Kim Do
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January 4, 2018
I can feel every fiber of my being. But it’s different. It feels foreign. My hands look different. It’s softer. More assertive in every punch into a key. It’s delicate and expressive like the leather on my favorite novel. My face tougher. Taking emotional punches to the chin. It formed calluses to take on the strongest and unexpected right hooks. But more often than not, it relinquishes my mind of any control and goes rogue (also known as resti…












I can feel every fiber of my being. But it’s different. It feels foreign. My hands look different. It’s softer. More assertive in every punch into a key. It’s delicate and expressive like the leather on my favorite novel. My face tougher. Taking emotional punches to the chin. It formed calluses to take on the strongest and unexpected right hooks. But more often than not, it relinquishes my mind of any control and goes rogue (also known as resting bitch face). My heart more empty. It carries less weight. Paying a visit to all these homes, doors opening in front of it with the naivety of a 12 year old girl. But how nomadic my heart is, opening another door, closing, and leaving abruptly, it learned not to leave it’s toothbrush and say “I love you” to every host. And my mind heavy. Heavy in aspirations. In conviction. In pumping blood. I imagine the blood being fuchsia, perhaps. Or violet. There’s magic in my mind these days. It’s oozing out of every pore in my body, ready to paint the walls, the streets, the clouds around me.

From today on, my mind will lead my steps ahead. It’ll shine the way even when the pit feels dark and endless. I’ll trust it. It’s blinding with the deepest streaks of pinks and purple. And so if you’ve known me before today, I’m sorry but I am not the same. You’ll see familiarities in my mannerisms, my smile, even my words. But you see, the light illuminating from my chest, from my mind is different. And if you’re looking for me. You’ll be disappointed if you’re expecting the old me.


Images by Kim Geronimo & Lynn Kim Do
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Fear in 2018

January 1, 2018



I’ll let you in a fun fact of Lynn Kim Do - New Years is my favorite holiday. In my opinion, It’s the one holiday that evokes change. It is one end to a chapter and a beginning of another. The whole world recognizes it. 2018 will arrive whether I want it to or not. It’s here. How did I welcome it? I mean, what kind of human do I want to be this new year? And so I realized…I am scared to death of 2018. So naturally, I asked myself—Why? Why am I so afraid? What am I afraid of?

Is it fear of failure? Hmm, a part of it is, yes, but that’s not entirely it. As much as I am scared to fail, I can’t help but to also feel the same way about success. What does both of those things have in common? What is the seed that causes this “fear”? Then I had an AHA moment It is the unknown factor. This is the first year in what seems like my life that I actually have no idea what it may look like, what to expect, what to envision. Everything feels and will be different, quite literally, too. And deep down inside, I can’t shake this sense of fear surrounded by excitement and anxiety. I’ve lived long enough to be able to compare many years. Right before 2018, I left a company I co-founded for two years, I signed a lease with the love of my life ending our border-over-long-distance-streak, and…I have yet to begin to remember the lines for my first professional play. (I really need to do that.) Yeah, so shit is gonna be different. If my life is contained in a metaphorical snow globe, then someone had just grabbed the globe from the bottom and shook it like an asshole. It’s going to be challenging. 2018 holds so much potential but it’s what you do with that potential that makes all the difference. So what now, scaredy cat? Errr, let me change the way I phrased that—What now, you bad bitch?

I guess, I must hustle. I’ve hustled every year since my very first breath but 2018 is the year of extreme dollar signs, Lynn Kim Do working harder than ever, laying a foundation for what I know I’m passionate about instead of working towards finding my passion. This is the year of SUCCESSES, of mountains and obstacles being climbed and crossed, and not settling. As I mentioned before, the mounting pressure of success IS SCARY. I’ve already put in the work to get here. Made all such sacrifices, took grand risks, left wasteful relationships by the sidelines, and practiced selective attachment. And god, I promise myself that I will never look back. 2018, I will hustle every moment of it.

Images by Laura Pulgarin
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January 1, 2018
I’ll let you in a fun fact of Lynn Kim Do - New Years is my favorite holiday. In my opinion, It’s the one holiday that evokes change. It is one end to a chapter and a beginning of another. The whole world recognizes it. 2018 will arrive whether I want it to or not. It’s here. How did I welcome it? I mean, what kind of human do I want to be this new year? And so I realized…I am scared to death of 2018. So naturally, I asked myself—Why? Why am I …


I’ll let you in a fun fact of Lynn Kim Do - New Years is my favorite holiday. In my opinion, It’s the one holiday that evokes change. It is one end to a chapter and a beginning of another. The whole world recognizes it. 2018 will arrive whether I want it to or not. It’s here. How did I welcome it? I mean, what kind of human do I want to be this new year? And so I realized…I am scared to death of 2018. So naturally, I asked myself—Why? Why am I so afraid? What am I afraid of?

Is it fear of failure? Hmm, a part of it is, yes, but that’s not entirely it. As much as I am scared to fail, I can’t help but to also feel the same way about success. What does both of those things have in common? What is the seed that causes this “fear”? Then I had an AHA moment It is the unknown factor. This is the first year in what seems like my life that I actually have no idea what it may look like, what to expect, what to envision. Everything feels and will be different, quite literally, too. And deep down inside, I can’t shake this sense of fear surrounded by excitement and anxiety. I’ve lived long enough to be able to compare many years. Right before 2018, I left a company I co-founded for two years, I signed a lease with the love of my life ending our border-over-long-distance-streak, and…I have yet to begin to remember the lines for my first professional play. (I really need to do that.) Yeah, so shit is gonna be different. If my life is contained in a metaphorical snow globe, then someone had just grabbed the globe from the bottom and shook it like an asshole. It’s going to be challenging. 2018 holds so much potential but it’s what you do with that potential that makes all the difference. So what now, scaredy cat? Errr, let me change the way I phrased that—What now, you bad bitch?

I guess, I must hustle. I’ve hustled every year since my very first breath but 2018 is the year of extreme dollar signs, Lynn Kim Do working harder than ever, laying a foundation for what I know I’m passionate about instead of working towards finding my passion. This is the year of SUCCESSES, of mountains and obstacles being climbed and crossed, and not settling. As I mentioned before, the mounting pressure of success IS SCARY. I’ve already put in the work to get here. Made all such sacrifices, took grand risks, left wasteful relationships by the sidelines, and practiced selective attachment. And god, I promise myself that I will never look back. 2018, I will hustle every moment of it.

Images by Laura Pulgarin
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